Almost there

Tonight is graduation night. As of 0600 tomorrow morning, ALS will officially be OVER!
Hallelujah! I can wear my pajamas to work again! Nine college credit hours in 5 1/2 weeks. About $30,000-$40,000 worth of schooling. That ain't no joke!

I've been giving some prayer and thought to my career. God and I seem to go around and around over this. It would be so much easier if he'd just speak out of the clouds or something, but hey, as stubborn as I am I may not even hear it.
Things I know:
I'm called to ministry.
I'm 'called,' if you will, to writing. I can't say that it's a divine command but writing is a passion for me. I want to use it to bring the Scriptures to life for people.

Things I believe:
God has blessed my ideas of what kind of ministry I should be in. I'd love to be a youth leader/adventure camp worker. Eventually maybe even a church pastor. Who knows?
God will bless my attempts at writing.
The military is a means to an end, for the most part. It provides life lessons, financial aid and training for all of the above. It's not a passion for me.

Things I just don't get:
How to get from 'believing' to 'doing.'
SERE, PJ, CCT, TACP?
All of the above will give me skills and experience, as well as civilian job opportunities, once I'm out of the military.
All of them are physically demanding (some more than others).
All will help prepare for my hopes and dreams. All could set me up for success.

My dream is to re-enlist as a SERE instructor for three years, go to Indoc and be a PJ until retirement. Then school (what would be left of it), then I could support a family and ministry without much concern for money (hopefully).
As best as I can see, the difference between SERE and PJ is medical training and small unit tactics (there are a few others, but not many).
Part of the reason I mention SERE is because I'm just not sure that I'm ready for something like PJ. The big reason that I mention SERE is because one day I was dreaming about Pararescue and out of no where the Holy Spirit spoke to me and asked a question - "Why war?" I didn't have an answer and still don't, other than I want to (personally) bring to justice the people that make a living from killing noncombatants. I also like the rescue aspect, more than anything. SERE will give me everything needed for the outdoor specialist stuff while I'm testing the waters for other stuff.

My biggest problem is water. I love water, but it doesn't love me back. I'm usually not afraid of it, and if I am, I can control it pretty well (now!). I've done the drown-proofing, the underwater swimming and the retrievals, but I just can't seem to get the surface swimming. It terrifies me that I might miss something that God has for my life just because I can't swim. God and I had a discussion last night about this. I talked, He listened. Now I'm trying to listen back but I'm not hearing anything. Speaking of listening, it's time for a Bible study.

By the way, Chuck Norris...never mind. :)

Danny